I am getting worn down, and the devil knows his work. But God is greater that he who lives in the world, and God lives inside of me! Please pray for me this month and help me fight back against the dark spiritual forces of this world.
For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.
I ended up writing a lot more than I meant to , so if you read nothing else, read these things to pray about, and do pray, please. They come from my page, How To Pray For Skye, and which are what I would like daily prayer for. There are pictures at the end, if you want to see.
11-29-15 An Important Month To Pray
I am experiencing an extreme amount of spiritual warfare right now, and I need your help. I’ve been very homesick. Each week it just seems to get worse, and I am not able to find joy. As hard as I try, I cannot make this on my own. Please pray diligently these things over me:
- That God would send me many angels to guard me and those who work here as God’s ambassadors. It is very dark here, and the whole church is really going though a hard time. I can feel the spiritual oppression.
- Pray against the spirits of rejection and depression. Pray for my homesickness, which is overwhelming me weekly if not daily.
- Pray for hope from the Lord Jesus Christ to guard me.
- Pray for something that makes it okay for me to be here. Really. This week I actually prayed that God would just let me go home.
- Pray for a heart for the people here. Where do I start?
- Pray for God to reveal his purpose in me coming here. I do not need to know everything, but I have to know something.
- Pray for my students to ask lots of questions about eternity. I think that may be my purpose. Pray that I’d be okay with that. Right now, I am selfishly just wanting to go home and do what I’ve always done.
It has been a while since I have written about what I do during the days here.
Each Monday I wake up and it is another teaching week. I say, I’ve just got to get through this day; tomorrow’s my day off. I make whatever plans I have yet to complete for school, try to eat breakfast, figure out something for lunch and food throughout the workday, hurry through the MRT station (subway), get off in Gongguan and catch a bus for 20 minutes. I pray or read the Bible during this time or listen to a podcast by Francis Chan called “Holiness Above Comfort” (look it up; I have listened to it probably five times already). When I get to school, I print off worksheets or make flashcards and at 2:00, my first graders wake up from their daily nap and it is time for me to teach vocab. We play games or do worksheets or read and then after 2 1/2 hours I get a 15-20 minute break before I teach 6th grade. My 6th graders come in after their Chinese school and I try my hardest to guide them logically through a lesson and help them learn grammar. It is okay for the most part, but still hard, especially when I know I am making mistakes or that my student’s scores are lower this semester. When the day is done, I am hungry, tired, and spacey, and I usually get home around 7:30 in time to practice piano for some odd thing (right now it’s a wedding). Then I climb up to my top bunk and sleep, knowing that tomorrow is my day off.
Then Tuesday comes and homesickness washes over me. I have a prayer meeting at 10, a language exchange with a lady named Momo at 11-12:30, a support group meeting called PAUSE for the interns from 12:30-1:30, and now another language exchange at 2:30. The block of time after that is filled variously but usually with a lot of me attempting to get my mind off of home and myself, which sometimes works, and usually more planning for school. I have a small group at 8-9:30pm in the basement of The Aroma, which I like being a part of. We are studying 1 John.
Wednesday is much like Monday, except that I have another small group at Miki and Caleb’s house. We are studying Philippians there. Then I go home and stay up late making vocabulary sentences for my 6th graders for the week (20).
Thursday is much like Wednesday, except that I meet with Jamie O’Dell at 9:30, who prays for me, studies James with me, and sends me off better than I come in to her house. I sometimes practice with the worship team after work on Thursdays, and try to gulp down food before we start. I can also tell myself, tomorrow is Friday.
Fridays are much like the best day of the week. Both 1st grade and 6th grade require little prep work for this day, and I have Coffee Talk in the evening after work. During this time, I lead a discussion on some topic like Australia, traveling abroad, or weird food, and help people practice their English. We have anyone from middle-school students to experienced businessmen who come to our tables to practice. Afterwards, I try to do something with friends if I am up to it.
Saturday is a hard day. I do some planning, I procrastinate everything, and I feel another wave of homesickness which continues, usually, through Sunday. I get to Skype with Lacey, or my mom, and sometimes my friend Joanna though, and that makes it better. Sunday mornings are family breakfast days, and Justin and Brittany and their daughter Kennedy, Andrea, Michael, and I all eat together at 9. Then afterwards we do the cleaning and I have church from 1:30-? There is a mandatory worship team small group at 1:30-3, then if I am on the worship team, we practice from 3-4, the first service starts at 4:30, and then the second is at 7. Sunday night I try to distract myself again, and everything starts over. I can tell myself I have completed one more week.
This trip should not be about me. Look– do you see anything in there about ministry? It is not healthy. Please pray for me to be able to stand stable enough to reach out and help others to the Cross. I am light-years closer to God than most of the people that I pass by every day.
May I be able to say the same thing Jesus said to his disciples in John 8:29
“And the one who sent me is with me–he has not deserted me. For I always do what pleases him.”
May God reveal to you where you are, and what your purpose is. May he make you stronger than you thought you could be. He is with you, and he has not deserted you. Do the things which please him.
Keep the Faith